Thursday, July 31, 2008

feel like expiring...

I’m done with my assignments. I don’t want to study Physics. I’m frustrated. I’m disappointed. I hate a number of people. I want vengeance. I’m hurt. I feel like crying. I need someone to talk to. I’m alone. I’m falling apart.

Such situations come where you’ve been hurt by a number of people and you want to complain for their unreasonable excuses, hurt in return for their insensitive principles, and cry for being stacked with frustrations at once. You need someone to talk to but you believe this is you’re business and that no one really cares about it. In your circle, others depend on you to listen and help them – you are the listener and the adviser. But it is different the other way around. You don’t trust any one who could listen to you and help you as you do to them. No one can help you but yourself. No one can listen to you but you. People have their own concerns and you have yours. Sometimes you wonder why these people trust so much on the wisdom you give them when in fact you yourself can’t see yourself doing what you are saying. What an absurd truth.

2 comments:

shikakage said...

i understand what that must have felt like, at times like that the number 1 feeling that you will encounter is none other than loneliness and frustration, your mind fills up with what ifs and you feel its unfair, you want to scream but you're afraid that someone might hear you or nobody will hear you. i honestly understand the pain that you're going through or had been through, i've been there although the reasons or circumstance might be different the feeling is the same. Its true its hard to trust but in time you'll learn to take a chance.


O_O sorry for the wall of text..*sweat drops*

Haifa said...

"you want to scream but you're afraid that someone might hear you or nobody will hear you."

..so true! you want to shout it all out to the world but you simply can't do it because you worry to what people might say or for the fear of being ignored. All you need for times like this is someone to listen.

char..!--,)